Category Archives: suicide
Manic Panic
Someday this will be funny. Actually it kind of was right after I attempted it. Clearly the new mix of meds isn’t working and I had another bout of severe mixed state mania. I could tell it was starting because … Continue reading
Filed under bi-polar, depression, suicide, Uncategorized
Trazadone is not your friend
So yeah. I had a severe dysphoric, psychotic manic episode 3 nights ago and made a lame-ass suicide attempt. Trazadone: the drug of choice for those with suicidal ideations! This was after what was a total black-out-wig-out-manic episode. I called … Continue reading
The Banana Peel of Death
Some night I’ll drink one too many glasses of wine and take one too many sleeping pills. Just have a feeling. Is it suicide then? Not sure. The Magic 8 Ball says Conditions Cloudy. Check Later. The older I get … Continue reading
Filed under accidental death, death, depression, suicide
The Sharpest Knife
Sharp serrated insidious Foolish mind and heart Believed the pain was gone for good Again I feel it start The daily choices made by me Keening call of quiet dark No one who can listen Or thinks it’s but a … Continue reading
Filed under daughter, death, depression, romance, suicide
Bi-Polar Part Deux!
Fucking meds. Ai. It’s a feeling of agitation/restlessness combined with an inability to concentrate. The medication is called Abilify but nowhere does it say Abili-not. Titrating off the 150mg of Effexor and have one more week at 37.5 before I’m … Continue reading
Filed under bi-polar, depression, medication, Nevada, suicide
we’re number two
It seems impossible to turn things around and I’m am incapable of seeing even fleeting future happiness. I find myself drawn to destructive behaviors and fantasies. These momentarily keep the demons away but are never enough. They’re all short term … Continue reading
Filed under depression, Nevada, Reno, suicide, usurus bank fees
check please
I’m feeling ready to check out now. It’s just a matter of dropping the key in the slot. It isn’t something new. It’s been a recurrent consideration for a very long time. I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression for … Continue reading
Filed under bi-polar, daughter, depression, medication, romance, sobriety, SSD, suicide
