The Sharpest Knife

Sharp serrated insidious
Foolish mind and heart
Believed the pain was gone for good
Again I feel it start
The daily choices made by me
Keening call of quiet dark
No one who can listen
Or thinks it’s but a lark
I watched my father leave here
My mind shaded even before
This horror show just added
A new act to the floor
I watched a dearest [...]

check please

 
I’m feeling ready to check out now. It’s just a matter of dropping the key in the slot.
It isn’t something new. It’s been a recurrent consideration for a very long time. I’ve been diagnosed with clinical depression for almost 20 years.
Changes, sobriety, a successful (but stressful) business never completely banished the suicidal ideations. Of [...]